Sunday, November 28, 2010

Sleep issues

For what is probably the 25th night in a row, I have not been able to sleep. I go to bed early, around 10pm and manage to sleep until about 1am and then I'm up. Wide awake. I can't get comfortable, I toss and turn and my mind RACES. I finally manage to fall asleep again around 5am, which during the work-week really sucks because I have to get up at 6am. Of course on the weekend, I end up snoozing on the couch for most of the afternoon because I'm so damned tired and that's just not helping either.

I don't know what the problem is, but I can't keep going like this.


Thursday, November 25, 2010

7 weeks today

and fingers still permanently crossed. Of course, when I logged on to post yesterday's U/S picture, the first thing I did was read through everyone's updates. My deepest, heartfelt sympathies to Jay. I just don't even know what to say. Such a sad loss. It terrifies me. Please let me make it with this one. Please.

So far, all looks good. Heartbeat was at 130 and baby is measuring perfectly. I am officially graduated from the clinic and move on to the OB. First OB appointment is next Thursday.

My boss says it's going to be a girl. I think so too. This brings a whole new set of terror for me. I really, really want a boy. I just cannot relate to girls. I HATE pink with a passion and the thought of a lifetime of pink things, lace, hair bows and frilly dresses freaks me out. I have no earthly idea how to be girly and I don't even remotely think any of that stuff is cute. Yuck. How can I have a child I don't think is cute?! I fear a girl will have daddy issues and boy issues and all the other girls-are-cruel issues that I have absolutely no way of dealing with.

Of course, yesterday my sister found out what her baby is, and it figures...another boy so now I'll have two totally adorable sweet baby nephews. This of course makes me want a boy even more so they all can be buddies.

The picture:

Saturday, November 20, 2010

6w2d Update

Just stopping in for a quick update. I have been lucky/unlucky enough to be in the full throes of Teh Sickyness. Yuck. Some days have been worse than others though and I'm grateful for that. TMI, but I have been "blessed" with the full trifecta of ick: Diarrhea, Cramps and Nausea/Vomiting.

Gotta love the weird food aversion too. So. Much. Fun.

I have tried taking Pepto pills (Doc said it was ok), and while they seemed to ease the nausea, they caused TERRIBLE cramps and shits for days *shudder*.

I tried Zantac which didn't make any difference at all. I felt fine with it one minute and the next minute I'm hugging my trashcan (yes, in my office. It blows and so do I. HA.)

I have tried keeping food in my tummy, but all that seems to do is make it worse. Not to mention that I think my metabolism has actually sped up a great deal because I seem to need to eat every stinkin hour at the latest. Combine that with the poopy issues and it's just an all-around party.

The good news is that today I feel pretty good, just minor crampy/aches so far and I have a 7 week ultrasound scheduled for Weds and then I am officially graduated to the OB, with an OB appointment at 8 weeks.

Fingers will remain permanently crossed that things continue to go "well."

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

5w5d Ultrasound

One baby, measuring 5w5d which is where I am today exactly. Very visible heart beat, but there is a bit of concern because it only seemed to measure at 90-100 beats, and the doctor wants to see it get to 120 so I have to schedule another ultrasound next week to measure the heartbeat again.

The bad news is, THE SICKNESS SUCKS. Hard. I have been feeling icky off and on for the last couple of days, but today I spent a good part of the morning feeling just miserable with bouts of nausea happening every 2 hours or so throughout the afternoon. I'm trying to figure out a pattern and eat right before I'm scheduled to start feeling icky and so far it's helping I think. I managed to get quite a bit done at the office today and no one important seemed to notice when I was feeling bad. I had a small loveseat moved into my office so I can close my door (and pray no one comes in) and relax a little. My mom laughed at this, which I don't really see what's so funny. If I have the space and the available furniture, then why not?

Tomorrow morning I'm going to try popping a pepto bismol pill first thing when I get up and eat a granola bar or something. Maybe that will help.

And the picture:

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Beta #2

Bloodwork is in, Beta #2 at 21DPO is wait for it....


To quote my nurse "it's growing like crazy!"

First ultrasound is on Tuesday the 16th. YAY!

OMG I'm really pregnant...

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Really pissed off at OB clinic

So I called the OB office to get in for my 8 week check and the bitch told me that because she "had a wheel' that tells her how far along I am, I wouldn't be at the 8 week mark until Dec 16th and that's the soonest I can get in. Um, if the insemination was on October 21, I will be at 5 weeks this week, which means I'll be 8 weeks on Dec 2nd. I don't want to wait until after week 10 for my first appointment. That's almost the first trimester!

Not to mention she wouldn't give me decent time frame. It was either dead middle morning or dead middle afternoon. No way of working around that. I tried to tell her that since I don't get maternity leave, any leave I have to burn to go to these appointments takes away from what I can take when the baby gets here.

I plan on calling back and basically demanding to get in before my 10 weeks is up, but I have to wait until I've cooled down.

*Edited to add that I just tried to call back and now the bitch isn't even answering the phone. OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO that pisses me off more.

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Beta #1

Blood tests are in and I am officially, most definitely pregnant. YAY! I have already started my registry on diapers[dot]com lol. I am so excited and I want to shout it and tell everyone, but I know I need (and want) to wait until after the holidays.

My Beta this morning was 550 which is great. I go back next week for beta #2 and then a week following that is my first ultrasound.

I am so stoked.

Tuesday, November 2, 2010


I'm in shock.

♫ Saturday night I was downtown, working for the...

One of my favorite songs for a purely nerdtastic reason.

Today is 12dpIUI and AF was a no-show this morning. There is nothing I can do to not get my hopes up. They are now sky high and my brain has run away with the OMG! OMG! Did it really work?!

I have been too terrified to pee on that one stupid test I have at home. I want to sooooo bad, but I'm terrified of getting a BFN. I may just go to the store at lunch and get one, but then a big part of me says to just wait for my bloodwork on Thursday. AF is officially late according to Fertility friend online and they say to take a test tomorrow.


Monday, November 1, 2010


Well, I am pretty sure AF will be arriving tomorrow morning. Maybe even late tonight.

Can't say I'm surprised, but dammit anyway.