So here it is, the end of June. Summer is in full swing and I am still thinking and pseudo-planning this whole having a baby thing. I keep going back and forth about timing. I like the idea of having the baby before the hot summer months (who wants to be 8-9 months along and miserable in the heat?), and I feel like May is a great month for a birthday. Mine is in May and I've always loved that time of year. It's not too hot, fresh fruit is in season and kids are still in school which allows for good birthday parties. Of course, this means getting pregnant sometime in August. August is not that far away.
I heard a great quote the other day. I think it was on Grey's Anatomy, and it was something like: Q- "When is the perfect time to have a baby?" A- "There is no perfect time. If you wait for the perfect time, you'll never do it."
A big part of me wants to just stop thinking about everything and just do it. Just call the doctor on Monday and tell her I need that referral to the fertility clinic and make the appointment. Just go get inseminated after this next cycle and que será será!
But then, I think about the timing, the money, the complete lack of support and assistance I have here and I feel like a dope for even thinking about doing this so utterly alone.